tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15003148.post115331911709411142..comments2015-03-27T10:38:15.985-04:00Comments on Heart Hitting: A. M. Wilsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03914956030606428480noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15003148.post-1153678100389692782006-07-23T14:08:00.000-04:002006-07-23T14:08:00.000-04:00Alison,I don't think it's ridiculous at all. It's...Alison,<BR/>I don't think it's ridiculous at all. It's how you feel, and therefore, a valid emotion. What you do with it makes the difference.<BR/><BR/>I think I really started to grasp the whole trusting God with my kiddos when He helped me to realize just how much more He loves them than I do. Hard to fathom, and impossible without His help, but it's the truth. He knew all there was to know about your beauty before you even knew she was going to exist. He had a plan in place for her from the foundation of TIME! That one boggled my mind for a bit. :-) Jer. 29:11.<BR/><BR/>As to testing your faith if you give her over to Him, I would have to argue He's liable to have to MAKE you give her over if you don't willingly. Watching my little one go under was the hardest thing I can remember having to do, but it put things into perspective as nothing else can. HE has the control over when she breathes, when she sleeps, when she wakes and when she goes to be with Him. That's not easy as a mom to grasp and accept.<BR/><BR/>Perhaps try just praying the pray first and asking God to work on your heart to make the feelings come? I don't think you need to "test" anything. There are enough issues in this life that we have no control over, why make it harder for yourself? :-)<BR/><BR/>Our feelings tend to be the byproduct of obedience rather than the first step. Forgiveness isn't something we FEEL for another. It's the obedient act of letting something go and then the feelings change as a result of that obedience. Don't be too hard on yourself, mom. :-)A. M. Wilsonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03914956030606428480noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15003148.post-1153503962540078602006-07-21T13:46:00.000-04:002006-07-21T13:46:00.000-04:00My daughter is 6.5 months old, and I still don't r...My daughter is 6.5 months old, and I still don't really trust God to take care of her as well as I can. Isn't that just ridiculous? Every once in a while I'll test myself to see if I'm ready to pray, "She's all yours, God," and I've yet to be able to go through with it. Not that it really matters; she's His whether I recognize it or not, but I know that, as a Christian, I should certainly be able to trust God with anything, especially my baby. For some reason, though, I can't help but think God will test my faith if I really turn her over to Him by injecting some awful event into her life. Yeah, like that's the kind of God we serve: vindictive and outirght mean. *sigh* But my head and my heart just can't seem to see eye-to-eye on this one. I envy your ability to do it. :)<BR/><BR/>-alison<BR/>blog.alisonstrobel.comAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com